Eeeh, my mood is the color of this website. I’m feeling rather stagnant now and I just can’t stand it. I enjoy the comforts of living at home, but I feel like I’m back in High School, and that’s not somewhere I want to be back at. At TC there were always some good folks around, but here I feel pretty solo. I have no idea how to meet new people especialy that I am living at home… sigh. I guess the real problem is that I have no gay friends here. Don’t get me wrong, I love my straight friends, but it is different. There are some things you just have to be to understand. I try talking to people online, but find it endless chatter that leads to nothing (if not quick hookups – which I don’t want.) Plus that’s no real fun. I’m thinking about going to a club this thursday, but I never seem to have a good time at them, and I’ve never really gone by myself. So even though I’m feeling pretty smart and that I look good (been working out hard) it’s like there is no way for me to show it off a little. I think I understand why people do drugs… but I won’t be going there, even if that makes things harder in the short term. Well, that’s it for my first glum entry.