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Sweet Music

Sitting on my porch (it was warm today!) and contemplating a placid sunset over an urban tableaux, I got a chuckle thinking about the time I made my American History class a music class. Don’t get me wrong, I used multimedia in my courses to the extent I could over there but this one class was special. They were 11th graders in a highly advanced hard science/bilingual English profile (track) and were just an odd bunch. A mix of oddballs, stoners, very smart and very clever kids who had clearly come to a compact of how they would conduct themselves as a class, they were my most difficult during my first year at the Hungarian school.

At one point that year I cursed at them in the class, which got me a small reprobation among the staff but marked the beginning of a general change in attitude. Since this happened when they were 10th graders, the following year I was to teach them American History, which, by the way, was my favorite course that I taught over there, if the most difficult. So, they were a great class and we did American History.

I wanted to get up to the Reagan revolution but didn’t make it that far, so we were going to have to end amidst the counterculture. We had watched “Berkeley in the 60’s” and sniggered a bit at some of the antics, but overall it was much appreciated. I figured we’d go out in a bang, and it seemed that a big group sing along would be the perfect way to do so.

As was the difficulty with teaching such a course, it was tough to select just the right few songs. The play list was: Buffalo Springfield – “For What It’s Worth,” Janis Joplin – “Me and Bobby McGee,” Jefferson Airplane – “White Rabbit,” and closing out the set, two from Peter, Paul and Mary – “This Land is Your Land” and “Puff the Magic Dragon.” I cleared out my new language lab and set it up as best as I could as amphitheatre so we could sit without desks (something that is rarely done within Romanian schools.) Our resident guitarists had a hard time keeping up, but we got into some full fledged singing.

I think that’s part of what they find amusing about us Americans; the passion with which we approach certain things in life are not valued as a priority in their traditional culture. So as we sang about that magic dragon, the one who is known by all of a certain tradition, I felt as if we had come far and benefited one another. To sing with gusto is to live.

Round and Round

I just spent a few hours at the local roller skating rink. I was trying to think about the last time I actually went roller skating, and if my memory serves me correctly, it was at Wal-Lex. Wal-Lex was this great 50’s style entertainment venue. There were two buildings, one housed the roller skating rink and the other was a bowling/pool hall place. It was a perennial favorite among friends and many a birthday party was held there.

To keep things in check there was an old Chinese man, Wing, who would wear a referee uniform and skate around, whistle in mouth, ready to call you out if you pushed the limits a bit too far. Another great thing about Wal-Lex was that every time you went, at some point they would stop the regular music and play the “chicken dance.” Wing would lead the crowd, and en masse, everyone would stoop down and flap their arms at their side… it was corny but we all loved it.

I remember after I had been away at college for a while I came back home for a break and happened to be out by Wal-Lex. Sadly, the times had moved beyond such simple pleasures, and in its place was a generic Petco/Staples shopping plaza. It was sad to see the place gone, it was as if a certain part of my childhood had been erased. So tonight’s pleasures were a bit nostalgic, and yeah, I didn’t fall.

Return to an Unknown Familiar Place

Dreams. For me they come and go in no particularly discernible pattern. Last night they came. I found myself back in an unknown hotel. This time, however, my parents were visiting. I was there as me, i.e. a VISTA, and I had been there before. This was a grand place, but as with many of my dreams, wrought with some glaring inconsistencies.

I was involved with a few things: 1) helping to prepare a meal for unknown guests in a basement kitchen, 2) showing my parents around and 3) worrying about a meeting that I probably would not be able to make. Within this unknown familiar hotel I was aware of another theme of previous dreams of mine – broken elevators. Although the hotel had 6, in some shafts they creaked by slowly and crookedly, doors agape; others beckoned but seemed a bit off and as a result I did not trust them.

Instead we took the stairs down to the 2nd floor which was where the great ballrooms and the balcony of the theater were located. The place was occupied with other guests, setting up for events, rehearsing formal dinners. One particular ballroom had large square windows on each side – it was dark outside, with just the faintest hint of the retreated sun. A black family in formal wear was taking pictures and enjoying themselves before their guests arrived. The next room was a magnificent bar, well stocked and already with a bit of a buzz that would surely increase as the night progressed.

But the real treat was the room behind the bar through the door on the right. This room I remember the most vividly. The entire space had been preserved in the style of the original hotel owner, an eccentric man who is believed to haunt the room. The kindly but strange Italian caretaker greets us and points out some of the notable features, including an old bed, chair and scattered reading material. Unlike the rest of the hotel, this room is dimly lit, as it would have been in olden times, and faintly musty. Though spooky, it is not, however unpleasant.

At some point I am lying in the bed until I feel a poke at my feet at which point the attendant warns me of ghosts. Outside the window a diorama has been constructed and from it I can view the old port city, itself bathed in late twilight with the fog rolling in. But my breath quickly obscured the window and it’s time to leave. I thank the man, kissing him on both cheeks, Italian style, and wonder what kind of strange person calls this haunted room home all day. As for the dinner and meeting, those matters remain unresolved.

And I can’t help but wonder about the people in the town as the fog rolls in.

Boot

Do you ever find that a swift kick in the ass is sometimes absolutely necessary? Well that’s what I got this week at work. And you know what? I deserved it. I had set out some very interesting projects for the office and not followed through with what I had said I would do. I’m not sure what it was that got me into a rut of low productivity, but really it doesn’t even matter; I’m here to do a job and I need to do that job to the best of my abilities. Once I was able to realize that their criticisms were not personal I worked on re-adjusting my attitude. I’d like to thank those people who helped me understand what was going on and what I had to do. This all said, I feel great. Today we went for a free lunch at the brand new dining hall at Bates – wow! It’s a stunning space and will give other NESCACs a run for their money. Next week I’m giving a presentation on the Peace Corps at the Lewiston Public Library and the following week I’ll be participating in a student leadership conference in Augusta. I feel a renewed sense of importance about what I’m doing and I also feel good about myself – who I am and what I can offer.

My Second Thoughts

As my previous post (not the psychedelic strobe candle light picture of my Mac) may have imparted, I feel a bit like an outside observer in much of what is going on. When I had this miniature epiphany, I tied it back to how perhaps I’ve always operated, and the re-enforcement of such behaviors by my Peace Corps experience.

As a foreigner in a highly unfamiliar culture, one stands out without much effort and must therefore first become an active analyst before developing any level of understanding about trust and boundaries; since these two attributes constitute much of what defines culture, one must be open to learning them in a method which is likely neither verbal nor written.

Back now in a familiar environment, this angst is channeled into the political process. People often forget that being a good rhetorician does not necessarily equate with being the most loquacious. In this regard, McCain will seem like a wise elder when compared to Bush, which will be in his favor. However, when it comes to inspirational, perhaps transformational rhetoric, Obama is without a doubt the leader of the pack and therefore my choice for President. Don’t worry though, it’s not only the rhetoric I dig, but also the message; Obama has become more Populist recently and seems to have successfully picked up the mantle of Edwards supporters.

Back to what I was saying before that sneak endorsement.

The more I’ve become aware of how deeply the democratic process has been subverted in this country, the more hopeful I am that its exposition and remedy will come in all due haste. No doubt the process has begun, but its accession to the new hegemony will be challenged ruthlessly. The paring of bold Kennedy-era vision with Millennial technology provides a potentially explosive fruit. Key to this is universal domestic high speed broadband access to an open internet (tax funded.)

I think my generation has moved beyond the outside observer status and joined the process via a diverse range of means. In many, if not most cases, the desire of one generation to change the policies wrought by the previous is universal. This fantastic power, does, however, have an often crippling downside, the tendency towards factionalization. If such pitfalls can be consciously avoided, the great power of coalescion can be applied to gravely important matters.

These are shockingly seminal times.